The Pieces Keep Changing

So I was asked to give an update and as I thought about it for a while, I wondered what should I write about?  At first I thought I should probably do a happy upbeat life is going great, I am thankful for everything blog. But then I realized that would be pretty much sorta a lie.  I say sorta a lie because I am thankful, I am thankful for family and friends that have been there for me this past week especially. I am thankful for the medicine my doctors give me in order to keep me going. And I am thankful for many many other things in my life which are far too many to mention.  I was also told by a wonderful friend of mine that I do not give myself enough credit so I will do that too.  I am doing pretty good in school right now.  Finals are next week and provided I do well on all of them I should get two A's and a B and if I am lucky I will pass my Math class. (its a pass/fail class) (Math is not my strong suit)  So some how through all my stresses I have managed to keep my grades up... GO ME!  Now that being said please stop reading now if you don't want to read my depressing, complaining and otherwise whining about my medical problems yet again b.s. Thanks.

However, life isn't so great right now, I haven't been feeling so hot.  The MALS has been acting up something awful, so much so that now I am on a steady diet of Compazine (an anti nausea med). Which by the way happens to be my new favorite drug of choice. FYI take my Compazine away from me and pretty sure there will be a hell of a fight on your hands! The reason for this new love of mine is the chronic pain has gotten much worse in my guts and I have started to puke now too. Oh the joy of being chronically ill. 
The FMD seems to be okay, I have had a couple of dizzy spells and headaches that are a bit weird but I chalk those up to mini mini TIA's and nothing to get into a fuss over.  There is not a damn thing the ER would do about them as they are over practically before they start anyway.  Oh I had pneumonia last week and still feel the lovely side affects from that, its been a joy too let me tell ya.
There are some mental health areas that need addressed too as you might have guessed due to all these things, as I am still not over the anger issues I have.  I suppose because not even a year into the diagnosis its just too dang hard to accept everything.  Is this normal is that normal.  It feels like I'm puzzle, but the pieces keep changing!  Not even the edges are edges anymore. Maybe that's the best way to describe how I feel. I told an instructor at school today that I think I am going crazy.  Ha maybe I am.

Anyway, I really hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, just in case I don't update before then.  Be safe, enjoy each other, and be kind!
Love,
Chane